In My Daughter's Eyes

I was driving down the road this morning and the Martina McBride song, "In My Daughter's Eyes" came on. As I drove, I cried just listening to the words. The first verse especially touched me. It says,

In my daughter's eyes I am a hero
I am strong and wise and I know no fear
But the truth is plain to see
She was sent to rescue me
I see who I wanna be
In my daughter's eyes

Sometimes I do feel that Ann Catherine rescued me. Chris and I often say, "Melissa saved Ann Catherine's life and Ann Catherine saved ours." Melissa held on to give Ann Catherine a chance to live and then Ann Catherine held on and, in turn, gave me a chance to keep going. She literally gave me a reason to get out of bed in the morning. I don't know how I would have dealt with Melissa's death had I not had Ann Catherine.

Then Lily rescued us in her own way. She has allowed us to watch the unbreakable bond between sisters. I felt that Ann Catherine had so much taken away from her when Melissa died because she lost her twin. But God gave her another chance to have a sister and I am so grateful. She and Ann Catherine were playing in the floor tonight and Chris and I got such a kick out of watching them. Lily has brought so much love and laughter into our home. It has been amazing.

I always wanted girls. I remembered how thrilled I was at our ultrasound when the doctor immediately realized Ann Catherine was a girl. I have a great relationship with my mom and I wanted the chance to have the same with my own daughters. The mother/daughter bond is so beautiful. I am so grateful to God for giving me my girls.

And I know what Martina is talking about later in the song when she talks about that tiny hand around your finger. When Ann Catherine puts her hand up and says, "hold" and then leads me around, my heart just melts. At that moment, all is right with the world. How can that tiny hand hold so much happiness?

I'm posting the rest of this song. If you have daughters, let the words sink in and know how truly blessed you are.

In my daughter's eyes everyone is equal
Darkness turns to light and the
world is at peace
This miracle God gave to me
gives me strength when I am weak
I find reason to believe
In my daughter's eyes

And when she wraps her hand
around my finger
Oh it puts a smile in my heart
Everything becomes a little clearer
I realize what life is all about

It's hangin' on when your heart
has had enough
It's giving more when you feel like giving up
I've seen the light
It's in my daughter's eyes

In my daughter's eyes I can see the future
A reflection of who I am and what will be
Though she'll grow and someday leave
Maybe raise a family
When I'm gone I hope you see how happy
she made me
For I'll be there
In my daughter's eyes